my head is battling with my heart

I just can't contain myself anymore. I don't know which side would I take, my heart or my head. Sometimes, I want to follow my heart, but sometimes my head says ,"Hey, get up, silly head! Wake up". Now I'm thinking bipolarish (if that would be the perfect term). One day, I'd say, "Okay, I'm gonna do this." The next morning, "No, I won't ever!". You see? It's difficult when your head is battling with your heart.

I've been to heartaches, but this one left me shattered in pieces. I mean, yeah, I've prepared for this fall, but I did not expect how deep it would be. A stupid guy did not understand what I'm trying to say. I just wanted some space 'coz I can't breathe anymore. I can't breathe the way I used to when we laugh and sing. Something's wrong and we gotta fix it. But too sad, he could have just waited for me. Too late. Another girl caught his eyes and put a different smile on him. I don't know how, I don't know how she did it that my man had just decided to leave me.

I know I don't own any man, so I let him go and just prayed that he would be happy with this girl. And so, that was it. Unexpectedly, we met again for quite sometime. He said they just broke up, and me, surprisingly not surprised (i hope you get me), was just, "Uh, yeah? So, what's up now?" "I'm sorry." That was too late. I just moved on. After all that, you would just say sorry? I mean, I'm a girl, I'm sensitive. Hey, man, you would've done better than sorry, right? And hey, I just said I needed SPACE. I did not tell you to leave. Maybe chance had really told me. You're not worthy of this love.

I admit, I'm still missing you, but the pain and mistrust you gave me just can't leave my brain right now.